If you know what Co-Star is, you know that on a daily basis it gives you a little piece of advice specific to you.

And today mine was
“Think about what do you do when you fear someone.”

And at first, I was terrified. (And I refused) <- dramatic much?
Thinking about losing someone made me feel like I would manifest losing someone. I don’t wanna manifest losing someone.

But then I actually thought about it and they weren’t asking me to manifest losing someone. They were asking me to think about how I behave when I have to let someone go.

And the answer to that question is a little deeper.

Different people mean different things to me.

There are my best friends, who are my equilibrium. They keep me grounded and make me feel safe. I love them and I desperately want them to have all the happinesses in the world. I always save a little of my manifesting for my friends.
Which I guess is similar to praying for them. But Praying is weird and I don’t really do that

Especially after the past two years they have stuck by me and made sure I am okay and listened to my complain about everything from my hair to my lack of dick and the crazy construction going on my building. I really never shut the fuck up

If I didn’t have my equilibrium to keep me grounded I would fall apart.

But, there are a couple of people who I let slide through the cracks, and honestly I don’t miss them. Not everyone cares about what’s best for you. Not everyone wants you to be happy. Not everyone wants you to live your best life.

Some people stay around just so they have something to talk about.
But detaching from people like that won’t hurt. At least, it didn’t hurt me. I felt clean. Like thank god.

If I care for you deeply and you decide to go, I would probably go down kicking and screaming.Eventually, I’ll let you do what you want.
I guess thats how I’ll let you know how I feel.

So for the draining people who just wanted to see me circle the drain?
If you did me dirty? Goodbye.

At this point in time, everyone who has shown me their true colors has gotten the boot. And all the people who keep me happy and sane have remained.

Sorry if this wasn’t entertaining. Co-stair made me think about it and I thought I would take you all along for the ride.