Sorry I’ve been MIA lately.

I wrote a blog a week ago and I hated it. And I figured If I wouldn’t wanna read it why the fuck would YOU want to read it.

The past two weeks I did nothing. So depressed and unmotivated and yuck. I didnt get out of bed. I would go grocery shopping or I would feed my cat and my dog but that was it. Sometimes a sad bitch doesn’t wanna live.

The cold weather was getting to me.

But like good things… bad things come to an end too…

In the midst of my depression cocoon I reconnected with an old friend. And it was honestly really nice to hangout with someone who understood what I was going through and like also likes to live on the wild side a little.

Its nice to shake up your life and do different things once in a while.

Like drinking champagne on a Wednesday afternoon.

I couldn’t even flaunt it because instagram was down..

Anyways, I had to file my taxes this week and surprise surprise my relatives were talking shit about me to our accountant. Did he outright say it? no. Was he nasty to me the moment he walked in the door? yes.

He was like so mean to me.
He basically called me a brainless degenerate spoiled brat.

I suspected my relatives would talk shit about me to anyone who would listen
(They’re old and most if not all old people are so bored with their lives they feel the need to leech on to the social lives of others to no end)

Anyways, I was disappointed in the accountant. I knew my family would talk shit about me. But I was expecting him to keep his opinions unbiased or atleast make an observation for himself.

Truthfully, I really wanted to like him and I wanted him to like me. My dad had spoken so highly of him and my dad went to him well before I was even born.

After he almost made me cry in his office…

I complained to my best friend for two hours about how mean he was.

Then I went through a couple of things that help me too destress when I start to feel overwhelmed and flustered

1. Make a list of all the things you need to get done.
Not for nothing my list was very long but I already did three things today .

2. De-clutter your life.
Throwing things away. Taking out the trash. Remodel the furniture.

3. Take a break.
I like to take a depression nap or like just lay down for an hour. Sometimes we overwhelm ourselves by looking at how much we need to get done. And it may not be as bad as we make it out to be.

4. Be grateful.
Nothing makes you feel like life is worth living like writing down a list of things
that make you feel happy to be alive.

Anyways, clarity to me is the first step to feeling good about life again.

am I 100% ? No.

Am I getting better? I am a work in progress. I would say that nobody really starts out perfect and even when you’re on the correct path there definitely are set backs.

Well, I think I’m going to a strip club tonight

(So I am going to go shave)

Later days… xox